I went shopping with some friends yesterday. Got myself some new clothes, lippies and shoes. Not as much as I’d hope.. But I guess it’s better than nothing. A majority of the stores were on mass0r sale, we obviously went crazy. I finally got a new pair of jeans, my old ones are falling off my ass and lookin’ really pathetic. I got a pair of those cool superlows from Levi’s . No, my tummy ain’t exactly a carbon copy of J-Lo’s, I’m still not sure why I got it *Haha* But it looks good and I found out I’m down 3 sizes! Yay! I still need a new belt, a few more tops and a couple of other stuff. Thing is, I’ve already hit my spending limit. Ulp. I’m gonna have to think of something. I have a couple of paychecks coming, but not much at all. Besides, I have to pay my cellphone bill. Aargh! Whatever.. I have a super cool pair of jeans!

I see: major changes I need: to lose weight I find: nothing I want: control I have: sufficient I wish: to understand I love: nothing I hate: self-inflicted emotional pain I miss: my dad I fear: fear itself I feel: scared I hear: music I smell: nothing I crave: confidence I search: sincerity & truth I wonder: if everything has a meaning I regret: lots When was the last time I… Smiled?: 10 minutes ago Laughed?: Couple hours ago Cried?: last week Bought something?: Friday Danced?: Half hour ago Were sarcastic?: Last night Talked to an ex?: no ex Watched your favorite movie?: I’m not even sure what my favorite movie is… Had a nightmare?: Don’t remember What was the… Last book you read?: Controlling your fat tooth Last movie you saw?: Swordfish.. again Last song you heard?: Britney Spears - Slave 4 U Last thing you had to drink?: diet coke Last time you showered? This morning Last thing you ate?: a chicken nugget Do you… Smoke?: nope Do drugs?: I cannot safely put anything in writing for this Q. Have sex?: no Sleep with stuffed animals?: not on purpose Live in the moment?: I try Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope Have a dream that keeps coming back?: Yeah, but it was a while ago Play an instrument?: nada Read the newspaper?: yeah Have any gay or lesbian friends?: not that I know of Believe in miracles?: Yeah, I guess

AAAARGH!! Just found out the paper is due in 2 days, and not 3 as I thought. Wait.. it’s Tuesday already. So the damned thing is due… TOMORROW. Shit shit shit. I’m still researching, can u believe that? I’m almost done, though. Thank goodness! After this I’m going to arrange the facts and type it straight away. I don’t expect much sleep tonight. I was sooo hoping on going to the lake and do a bit of running in the morning =( Today: Sent my sister to uni, researched paper, slept for a bit and had dinner at the Hyatt. Now stuck with shitload of werk. Well, gotta run. Adios.

Paper due in: 3 days. Length: 15 pages. Written: 0 pages. Me: screwed. In other news.. I’m going shopping again. Yay! *haha* A little rainfall and I have enough to go on a binge again. Kinda. Maybe I’ll get another pair of jeans… Definitely more tops, maybe another pair of shoes and, ofcourse, a belt. Can’t wait. The sooner I get this stoopid paper done, the sooner I can go. Okay, back to work. I hate research *Grrr*

      Wow. Just had the best night ever! I finally got home around 9.30pm (today).. maybe 9.45pm.. or later.. *shrug* I dunno *Hehe*  Anyways, last night was mass0r fun. Actually, the  “night”  started around 4pm.   Shakhira  invited a bunch of us over for dinner at her apartment. I got there early, ‘cuz I was from Uni and didn’t feel like making 2 trips and probably get stuck in traffic (her place is on my route back home). She left her key for me because she had a few errands to run and had to pick   Rakhma and Nini  up. They got to the apartment around 4pm and we hung out for a bit. Shakhira had to get back to work, so the 3 of us watched movies and MTV and looking through the photo albums Rakhma brought, filled with pictures of her in Melbourne.. her house, her friends from Uni, stuff like that.   Finally decided not to eat at home because some of them couldn’t make it.   Yasmin  couldn’t make, and also a couple others. It was a  girls-only  kinda thang. We went to this seafood place nearby and   Diana  joined us there. She got stuck in a bitch of a traffic jam. The food was  deeeliiishhh!  We ate until we could barely swallow our own saliva *Haha* I think I still see the bulge on my tummy from last night ;)  After dinner, Diana suggested hanging out someplace and just have fun. We haven’t really hung out for quite some time, so it was a pretty cool idea. We went back to get changed, and I had to send the car back home. Shakhira picked me up after she dropped Rakhma off. Rakhma was feeling tired, so she passed.   We ended up at The Beach Club. It’s this hang out place with (yeah, that’s right) a beach theme. The staff in hawaiian shirts, outdoor sitting area, various kinds of music, beach-bar-like decor and all that. The place was packed! We couldn’t find a table in the main area and the one upstairs was closed. We finally got this table, but no stools, so we had stand. The crowd was mostly foreigners.. tourists. We had our own corner with ample space to shake that ass =P It was so much fun, just 4 girls having a good time. I even had a cramp in my right leg when I was dancing *Haha* Too stupid! My legs are hurting right now. Ofcourse, there was the customary sleaze factor. And, not forgetting,  some cute ones to gawk at  …or drool, whatever suits your fancy =)  Nini saw this cute guy while she was on her way to the restrooms and later made me go with her to find him. Spotted. Sitting at the bar, looking real fine *Hehe* I told her to go say hello but she chickened out. After much  “you go. no,you go”  Shakhira went with me to where he was. I actually went up to him and told him the old “my friend thinks you’re cute. If you’d come over and say hello, it’d be really cool”. He asked me where we were sitting and if he could go meet her. So he followed me back to our little party and I pointed Nini to him. *LoL*  You should have seen the look on Nini’s face!  Priceless. He ended up partying the whole night with us, even when we moved to another spot. Strange thing, we ended up inviting him and his friend back to continue the fun.   Things were mad last night, on the way back, at the apartment… Back at the apartment, he was given glass after glass ‘til he finally had enough and went into the spare bedroom around 4am. His friend hung out at the living room with the rest, I have no idea what time she went in to sleep because I crashed in Shakhira’s room for a bit. When I went outside to join Nini, the room was empty.   Okay, this has gotten majorly long. I’m gonna have to continue in another post. Still loads to tell, plus the stuff I left out. Next up : Details, the morning after, etc..    To be continued..  

I haven’t slept in 2 days. Do I feel sleepy right this moment? Nope! I don’t know when or if I’ll fall asleep tonight. I’ve been out the whole day today, driving around. Weird thing is, I felt my co-ordination go to bust when I was on my way back home. It’s not like I was swerving the car all over the place like a suicidal maniac.. But I did feel weird and kinda felt scared for me *Haha* Nahh.. It’s nothing serious, I’m on paranoia over-drive these days. Well, this is gonna be super brief. I have guests staying in my room (where my darling ‘puter is) for a couple of days. They’re out visiting some relatives, so I came in for a quick post and email check. Hotmail is really getting up my ass. It’s junk mail haven in there! *Grrr* Anyways, Imma go now. Ta.

Been 5 days. What’s been happening? Quite a few actually. As usual, it’s quick re-cap time! This time, I’m not going day to day. Instead I’m just gonna mention days where interesting things happened. As much as I can remember. Here goes.. On Saturday, 22nd December, a bunch of us went to the soft launch party of this new bar in Bangsar. It’s called barFlam (the site says it’s pronounced as flame). Before that, Shakhira had this BBQ thingy. So it’s chicken wings and lamb before we got dressed up. The original plan was to drop by the opening for a bit, since we know the guy who works there, plus it’ll be cool to check the place out. After that, we were planning on going to KL and hit Gatecrasher at Movement… That, or just some other place. Just some place where we can dance like mad and have fun. As it turned out, Flams was pretty kicking. The music was a mixture of everything, yet it kept the happy-mood up. Like I kept repeating last night, “it’s a feel good place” *Heheh* Me, Shakhira, Rakhma and Nini got there first. Then we decided to stay and called up the rest to come join us there. Mach and Farah turned up next, then Marcus and Gerald. Fahmy called, so I told him to make his way over. A friend of Shakhira, Hisham, also came to hang out. We danced the whole night to practically all the songs. It’s kinda different from the rest of the places in Bangsar. Too bad it’s kinda small.. Everyone was dancing everywhere and anywhere. Towards the end of the night, there were also people up on the bartop shakin’ boo-tay . After Flams , everyone hung out at Shakhira’s place. Some went home, some slept over. It was a good night. That brings us to.. last night, Christmas eve. Muff invited a bunch of people to his place for a Hari Raya open-house. Got to meet up with some of the people from school that I haven’t seen in years . The guys, anyway. We got there around 3pm and left a couple of hours after that. I think. We headed to Coffee Bean in Bangsar to meet up with Gerald, then went down to Telawi because Shakhira was hungry again. We ate at Modesto’s, and somehow I ended up buying a new skirt. Some time during the meal it was decided we’d hit Flams later, after we go home and change. I left a top at Shakhira’s place, so that got paired with the skirt. Last night was mad! I think it was even more fun than Saturday night. We got there around 10pm, got the same corner table (by the entrance) as the other night. At first, it was only the 4 of us.. Me, Nini, Shakhira and Diana. Then Marcus and Gerald turned up. Fahmy called up, and I told him to grab a few friends and come over. He turned up with 4 friends, and then later in the night Carlos showed up with his girlfriend. It was one massive party.. Okay, maybe I’m exaggerating. But I did have mas0r fun. There was the countdown to Christmas, and santa hats and glowsticks abound. The place was packed like mad, and the whole stretch of Telawi was filled with people. We partied the whole night, and I even ran into Dolly there. There I was, dancing like I’m on drugs with a santa hat on my head, when she walked in with Fahmy. Pretty funny stuff. Fahmy ran into her when he was outside making a phone call. I don’t know what time we finally left the place. Everyone (minus Carlos, his girlfriend and Marcus) went back to the apartment with us. Everyone hung out at Shakhira’s place doing whatever. Even a couple of guys from Flams came over. All the guys, and Nini, ended up sleeping like logs. Sheeshh. Even an earthquake wouldn’t have woken them. Me, Shakhira and Diana stayed up talking and laughing. I still haven’t gotten any sleep, yet. I had to rush back home because the family wants to go to an aunt’s place for lunch. Fahmy and his friends left the same time I did. Well, Shakhira had to send me home and Diana to her car in Bangsar. We left the other 2 guys, since they certainly didn’t look ready to wake up. Anyways, I got back home, freshened up and changed clothes at lightning speed and left for my aunt’s place. Thank God, I didn’t have to drive. Got back home and now just waiting to get ready for another Aidilfitri open-house tonight at Rakhma’s. We’re gonna go there around 8pm. I have to hitch a ride with Shakhira. Gotta wait for her to call me, since she lost her cellphone last night . Poor girl. I know it was in the car when we were heading home. I answered a call and then passed it to her because there was an sms message. Now we can’t find it anywhere. I suspect it fell out of the car when we dropped by her petrol station to get water and stuff. Suck. Oh well, my eyes are getting tired from staring at the screen. I’m gonna stop here and go wash my hair. It stinks of stale smoke. Euuuwww! Adios.

      This is freakin spooky. Annoying too. Somehow my password to my   blog  was changed. I don’t remember changing it, let alone to only a single letter. Weird. Was I tripping like mad when I was writting the last entry and changed the darn thing?  I highly doubt it.  Oh well… Whatever.  It was just confirmed that I’ll be going to Johor on Friday.  This  Friday.  3 days before New Year’s eve.  As you can already imagine, I’m highly dissapointed. Yeah, a little pissed too. Mom said we’ll drive down after I get back from class Friday afternoon. Suck ass. I didn’t ask her how long we’ll be staying there, but I hinted on some NYE thingy during breakfast this morning. Hopefully, we’ll be back by Monday. Pray for me!  Oh, I finally sent the roll of film to be developed. The roll with the pictures of the people we met at the Beach Club a few weeks ago, and also of Hari Raya and some snaps from last night’s open-house. I’m feeling pretty strange.. Funny, even *Hehe* My mind has officially ran out of things to write, so I’m gonna say byebye right now.  Bye bye.

Sorry for slacking on writting entries. I’ve been busy/lazy/exhausted for the past few days and yesterday was Hari Raya.. So, obviously I was mass0r busy with all the food and socialising *Hehe* I think I gained 2 pounds (atleast) since yesterday. Suck ass! ANyways, the continuation will be written. Only not now. I’m feeling mentally tired , not from all the excitement.. well, maybe a little from that.. but also from dealing with other emotional issues. Not mine, though. I’m happy, I refuse to let myself feel sh*tty and I don’t see the point in feeling icky. Like my sister said, “Most of the time it’s all in the head.” Smart girl. It’s like, if you keep wallowing in it, keep thinking about it and KEEP finding reasons to bring yourself down, obviously you’ll be forever stuck in the whole 24/7 pool of tears. Which I, personally, think is bullshit. My philosophy: No matter how bad you think your situation is, there are others far worst. Trust me. *Blegh* Enough about that. What’s up with all these pop-up ads?? I’m trying to write this extremely short post and it’s taking me forever! *Grrr* I’ll be typing away, and all these windows will pop up and I have to keep closing them. I got tired of that, so I decided to ignore them. Did that help? Noooo.. More pops up. Fullscreen even. *tears hair out* Okay, I’m actually escaping all that food downstairs. I had a slice of bread with some curry and chicken just now. I feel like having my mom’s laksa, but that’s gonna have to wait til later. I grabbed an apple and ran up here. It’s only the 2nd day of Hari Raya, food is still in abundance. Help!

            Take the   “What kind of Squirrel am I Test!”

Whoa.. last night was freaky. Not weird-freaky.. but major-fun-freaky. Went to dinner with Diana, Ninie and Shakhira at Modesto’s. Ninie’s having her birthday thang at BarFlam tonight, so we went over so she could finalise her reservations and stuff. Original plan: A drink or two while Ninie talk to the guy there. Finally: Stayed until midnight, left the place and somehow ended up back there. Diana went home, but we stayed until after 3am. *shakes head* Shakhira had mas0r fun, me and Ninie danced to practically all the songs. We were dressed majorly casual, while the most of the crowd (the girls, anyway) were decked in clubbing attire. BarFlam was surprisingly crowded and kicking, for a Thursday night. A couple of guys from the place came over after work and we hung out ‘til morning. I had to leave around 10.45am to pick my sister up and head home. That brings me to the not so good piece of news. I’m leaving for JB later. That means, I had to leave Shakhira’s place when I didn’t want to and also I’ll be missing Ninie’s birthday do. BOOOO! I’m really dissapointed. Oh well, atleast I had some last minute fun last night and this morning. The bright side is, I’ll be back Monday (the 31st) in time to celebrate the new year with the girls. No definite plans for the night, but all I know is I wanna have one hell of a time. Well, gotta get some stuff done before the trip. I’m gonna go now, maybe I’ll be able to blog from JB.. I don’t know. See you next year!

nothing better than an alcohol induced weekend… and nothing worse than coming in monday to work with a hangover

      i’m not at the peak of mental stimulation these days.  in fact, i’m pretty bored.  i used to read quite a bit and work on the computer a lot, but as of recently, i’ve just been watching tv and getting sucked into petty television lives. 
 
i think i need to go back to school.  no i *know* i need to go back to school.  it’s been 4 years since i was at the univ. of texas, and i wanted to take a little time off to figure out what the hell i wanted to do with my life.  now getting back to school seems like the hardest thing to do.  and i *still* haven’t decided on what i want to be when i’m grown up.  i don’t think anyone ever truely figures that out.  isn’t the statistic that the average person changes careers 6 times in their life?  i’m definitely in need of a career change.  i just can’t get myself to be a broke student again. 

      I’m blogging from my cousin’s house in JB right now. Big ass screen.. cool. Anyways, the trip has so far been filled with visiting and spending time with relatives. I’m missing KL, though. But, at the same time I’m chilling out and appreciating the quality time with everyone. Besides, I had  a few sms msgs and a couple of phone calls  that put a smile on my face *Hehe* * wink wink*  I’ve been using up the credit on my brother’s cell sending msgs to people *Hehe* I promised him I’ll pay for them, that refrained him from killing me. Fahmy called around 11pm and told me he’s meeting up with Shakhira at BarFlam for drinks. I texted Shakhira when I got back from my uncle’s place and she said she’s  “borrowing”  Fahmy. Crazy girl. *sniff sniff*  I wanna be there!!!    Counting the hours until Monday… When I’ll be back in KL and celebrating New Year’s with everyone. Crap! I still haven’t gotten an outfit for that night. Well, gonna sign off now.   G’nite.